Historically, I have been guilty of digging my head deep into the sand and not dealing with issues head on. Let me tell you, when your head is buried, the other end is way up in the air, which means someone is going to come along and kick you in the ass! Not always a good way to go through life!!!
So basically, that is what happened to me once we got home from China with Hugo. The day after we got home, our Dodge Ram Truck, sponanteously combusted in the driveway. Bam! A kick in the ass! We were already emotionally and physically exhausted and watching our truck go up in flames just added a new level of exhaustion to the entire family. The kids school had started while we were in China and I felt that I needed to get Bei and Kai into school as soon as possible. Well, Kai who has always loved school, decided that he didn't want to go to school this year. I spent the first several weeks, cajoling and then ultimately, carrying him into school every day kicking and crying. Bam!! A kick in the ass! That kid is big and strong!!! I would be in tears by the time I got back to the car to find Hugo in total meltdown mode with Bei trying to soothe him. Bam!!! Another kick in the ass! Oh, did I mention that every time Hugo got into the car, he puked his brains out??? Bam! A kick in the ass! Hugo was also having huge problems at even the thought of going to bed each night. Kai also started having severe allergic reactions to EVERYTHING!!! Bam! A kick in the ass! The poor kid was living on Benedryl and there were many days that he just couldn't go to school. I didn't know what the heck was going on with him. My house was a disaster! I still had not done laundry from China and I couldn't seem to either get motivated or find the time to do it. Yet, when you saw me, I would put on the happy face and tell you that everything was going great!
As much as our adoption of Hugo was Christ led, when I meet Christ in Heaven he might knock on my forehead and say "knock, knock puddin head, what were you thinking?" He will say, "I gave you a brain to use, why didn't you prepare for your homecoming?" It is one of those situations where I just didn't think of any of the details or the what if's. Now, looking back I think I dug my head in the sand because there were so many reason's why NOT to adopt that the logic and the detail may have put too much doubt and fear into my mind.
The good news is that I eventually pulled my head from the sand, therefore, my arse was reposition. The lesson I learned was to prepare for when you get home. Dan wouldn't have gone back to work on Day One. I would have kept Bei and Kai home another week to help with the jet lag and adjustment of having a new brother. I would have had Kai start kindergarten doing half days rather than full days. I also would have asked my mom or someone to come stay and just help me keep the house running. In the end getting a good ass kicking every now and then is good for the soul. It is how we learn to be better people and to do better next time. I put my head in the sand because it allowed us to adopt Hugo! He has been a huge blessing in our lives in more ways than I could have ever imagined!